I completed my dissertation this week you might think ‘So what? For me it’s the first tangible triumph I’ve made against my Dyslexia.
My Dyslexia really blighted my childhood, I think the main reason for that was not being assessed & consequently ‘diagnosed’ until I was in secondary school aged 12.
From almost the start of my education I was treated as thick, stupid, slow, that kind of treatment has had a real lasting impact. I still have low self esteemed & trust issues. As time passed and I got older I slowly found things I was good at, first Chess then Mathematics. Not what you would call typical of someone deemed slow/stupid. It showed people I had a brain & that there was something different going on. It carried on like this until finally I was assessed & found to be Dyslexic. You would think it would come as a relief, well in some respects it did but it also became a burden.
For the next 20+ years my Dyslexia became a crutch which I would use when things became tough / difficult. No more, I thought for a long time as to how I might change this rut that I had become a custom to. My solution in the end was quite simple, face it head on. The first part of this self challenge was my dissertation, making it about Dyslexia really motivated me to try as hard as I could to write as well as I know I am capable of. There was however no way I would be able to just sit & write thousands of words in one sitting so I had to think of an alternative strategy. My solution was to break it down in to parts / bits & concentrate on writing just 1 bit at a time, slowly building up until one after one each chapter was completed. This strategy has worked very well for me & has proved to me that when I really want to I can write just as much & just as well (or better) than anyone else regardless of my Dyslexia. This realisation has been very gratifying & very positive.
My next challenge is to translate my thoughts & ideas for my major project ‘Dyslexic Portraits’ into something that I can communicate to other people. This is something I have to some degree struggled with throughout the two & a half years of my degree. So in the next few weeks I will try to put down into words the ideas I have come up with so far for this project.
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25/01/2012 | Categories: Dissertation, Major Project | Tags: Dyslexia, Dyslexic | Leave A Comment »